Tuesday, Fourth Week of Advent
For we know only in part, and we prophesy only in part; but when the complete comes, the partial will come to an end. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became an adult, I put an end to childish ways. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known.
—1 Corinthians 13:9-12
One of the biggest gifts God gave us is the desire to see his plan. Even when the going is hard, God is there.
About two years ago, God brought an amazing family into my life. Max studies at Union College, Sam works at Dartmouth College, Nate is a lawyer in Boston, and Mark and Jill are the most funky and in love parents I have ever met.
Although I have known that Mark had cancer since we first met, I never thought that I would be wondering if we will have days, weeks, or months left with him. Right now it can be so easy to doubt Gods good intentions. Sitting in the hospital a few days ago, I wondered why I couldn't be at the mall joyfully shopping like everyone else. Why did I have to sit in a cold and dark hospital room with the family who deserves this the least? It was too easy to feel stranded. How could this fit into Gods plan?
On the night that Mark came home from the hospital, we greeted him with a little party. He walked into a warm home with friends and family who he had not seen in months. He fell asleep to the sound of his sons playing the mandolin, the sax, and the guitar. Although I may not understand why this family has to suffer, especially now, I can see the message that God is sending us. The only light I can find in this dark situation can be found through seeking God’s intentions. Mark’s sickness brought his family back for the holiday. It took away all of our concerns about Christmas gifts, washing dishes, and sending cards.
I have always heard: it's not about the years in your life but it's about the life in your years. Now I understand. The amazing thing about Christmas is that it is a time of year when people look for the face of God in their life. Take this time to focus on what you have. Spend time with your family, bake a batch of cookies, look at old photos, make someone smile. It's not important to fret about the things that we don’t truly care about. Look into your soul and find what feeds it. Put the life back into your years.
—Savannah Alvarado ‘15